Many days all in one

Lets just pretend that I woke up at a respectable hour today. After I woke up I took a wonderful shower all the while thinking about anime. It is not always fun to be me. You know, sleeping as much as I do and all.

Yesterday I went to the mall with my brother and we saw the movie 21 in the cheap flicks. Yesterday I was up early to go see my therapist and had caffeine…

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Another day has passed. It is a cold day. I feel dazed.

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Another day has passed. My computer hasn’t warmed up yet. There I have finished the last of my grapes. I must… no I cannot. I am festering the longer I go without a job the deeper I sink into this hole. I must…. I didn’t. Okay. Ok. I did it. I fixed up my cover letter and resume and sent it out into the world… again. It is just I get this feeling in my head that I cannot do anything, but the action of applying to the Cat Clinic (which is looking for people) shifted through that feeling a bit.

Sasuke is evil. Just taught I would throw that out there. Ummm. I just got back from going somewhere with one of my sisters… no not that one… or that one. Yes, yes that one. It is about time for facebook!

There Facebook time is over. I have made the decision that I will take Summer Classes (unless a wonderful job falls out of the sky). Less then a week is left between now and classes. I am going to be done soon! Dance Dance Dance. Do Do Do, Do Do Do. Oh, grasshoppers where is the party? My sister is in town. (She was supposed to be here hours ago…) Is it too late to go to coffee shops?

It is not like my time waiting for her was wasted. No, not at all. I moved around the classes I would be taking over the summer. After some review I concluded that I only needed 5 credits to graduate. Yay! However, I still need a job… do do do (the other Do Do Do was light hearted and sounded different).

Oh, yes… I am sure you are getting sick of this, but another day has gone by. I know you are wondering why I don’t just post each day even if it is short (because I appear to be writing it)… I don’t know.

My weight has gotten a little extreme for my small frame. Some people are built in different ways and can handle weight gracefully. Sadly I am not one of those people.

Anyway, I just had a call from a possible job (not the cat clinic) so I will be interviewing on Monday. *Scratches lower eyelid. I really want to work at the cat clinic, but I cannot wait for it.

As I picked out what to wear today I ran across the “I <3 my Body T-shirt, and then in my head I started chanting I love my body, I love my body… yet in reality I do not love my weight. I see the potential in my body.

As I seat here devouring my third big bag of grapes in a week. Before the grapes there were the raspberries and the blueberries and the strawberries. When I went to see my Dr. (not pDoc) I was told to eat more fruit, so here I am consuming happily. I love fruit. Right now Grapes are on sale a lot. They can be so expensive the rest of the year so I am swimming in them. In fact the only one of them that is reasonable the rest of the year are strawberries.

I had a sudden memory of preparing strawberry shortcake (taking out stems and cutting the strawberries up) while watching Camelot in my room on my T.V. This was the T.V. my parents gave me on the Christmas I spent alone. That Christmas I tried watching “Life is Beautiful,” but couldn’t finish much of it, and in the end a cousin of mine (who often called) called and I was glad to talk to someone. Apparently she was alone as well.

What would I say about today if I were looking back at it? I would talk about how I disappeared behind the computer while my sister talked with my sister, and I enjoyed the taste of black grapes. I would talk about my computer, and how it was a requirement of the school I attended and about how happy I was to use it when I first opened it up.

I remember saying in an email to my sister: “When I am drinking espresso I am playing a role like those I have seen on Will and Grace. The role of a hip city…person.” Okay, I am not sure exactly how I put it. It was certainly more eloquent. However, I am not longer playing a role when I drink coffee. I find it hilarious that I equated hip espresso drinking to Will and Grace.

arrivederci (goodbye) and don’t ask me why I used Italian

Noon Winks Café.

Red leather chairs, orang’ish floors and walls with a hint of red and purple all muted.  A little energy from Ow-la-la espresso at a coffee shop on Plymouth out by the Humane Society. Sadly I dressed up so I couldn’t go walk dogs. What was I thinking? Oh and my hair, who cares it is not that messed up. I will not get out here any time soon (dressed up) so I will ask if they have any job… what am I thinking… deep breath. I need not be intimidated by the seriousness of a job there. I need to get a serious job.

Do I really want to go ask for a job at the Humane Society? I am sure I would need up cleaning… not that this matters. I would have to watch countless dogs and cats that I love come and go. I would have to stand by the killing. No, this is not a job for the mentally ill. Yet I need a job… I need a job.

It would be a job of hardship and joy unlike many boring jobs out there. I will go now. Well, there is no cup holder in my car… so I will go after my drink is done.

You see it is about time I start to expand my search for jobs, and I had thought about the Humane Society from the beginning and will continue to unless I walk in there today and ask.

What do you think the cost of gas is between my apartment and the Humane Society? I am not thinking of this because of a job alone, but because I need to exercise and why not walk dogs while doing it. Lets see. I have to face this question. Lets ‘mapquest’ the two places and see the distance between. Five miles driving. Ahhh now I need the gas mileage and I cannot find it!

I give up for now… I know I’ve seen charts with average gas mileage for different cars and different years many times. Oh well. Sigh.

At least I know now that I take the best route to the Humane Society. Chug, Chug, Chug. I cannot have alcohol, but I can have caffeine. Thank God for caffeine. There are moments in my life when I stop to think… only God could have made this. Coffee is one of those things.

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My head is in a weird state right now. Perhaps it was from the heat in the car. I opened the windows after a while, but was so focused on the road that I forgot it at first. I am trying to draw a map in my head. Really I spent the last ‘who knows how many' minutes’ staring at Google maps. I matched the map in front of me with the map in my head.

Now the only thing to see is if it will take me somewhere… what… watch I will do more map studying. You know for that day when we all have hybrid (or whatever cars) and can therefore travel cheaply like people did in the past. I need to know my way around! Ahhh! Detroit (and the area around it) is just too much. So many roads! So confusing. Sigh.