More Abilify: Spinning, Rotating, like a boat in a storm

I try to sleep at night, and I do sleep at night, but while I am trying to fall asleep this weird sensation of being outside of the realm of gravity comes on me. I lay there in bed on my side and I feel as if I could fall into the wall. I try to sleep, but my body feels like it is spinning. The gravity pulling me to the wall disappears, and instead it feels like something is pushing me. I feel tingling at my back.

During the day, when I am not busy, and sometimes when I am, a feeling of uneasiness comes over me. I am not depressed, but I feel something is wrong.

Sanity I have, and too much of it. (I think so anyways, some people would say the whole spinning thing would be insane.)

At times it feels as if for a second a part of my brain is breaking. It is like a little pop, here and gone. My heart feels a little tired at times, it might be a result of my low blood pressure, but it nothing to be worried about. It has been a long time since my last period, but it might just be the sudden changes in medication that are messing up my system.

I do not like this medication Sam I am. I do not like this medication. But. I will stay with it to see if things get better. I cannot afford another medication that keeps me from sleeping, I am past the middle of the semester.

Early morning waking. I wake up as soon as the sun comes up, only I don't fall asleep until 12ish. I have a 10 am class which I get up at 9 for, and only have to get up earlier on Friday. So I wake up at six, and go back to sleep to wake up at seven, and so on. This happened with Geodon as well. ONLY with Geodon I would have woken up an hour too early, and felt the energy to get up and going only to be tricked by that morning energy was it disappeared to nothingness.

Back to Abilify

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So far I have been sleepy a little early in the evening, but much better than Geodon.

I loved that anti-anxiety medication (NOT GEODON). It put me to sleep faster than the last one. I however was eager to see what Abilify would be like without the added medication. Would the slight sleepiness go away? I would be welling to take that medication again, if needed.

-After being off the anti-anxiety-

There was one day when my intestines felt really bad, but that when away.

It has been a long time since my last period. Again. But I am waiting it out to see if things return to balance while I am on Abilify. My ovaries felt really funny the other day, but that might have been just in my mind.

So far things with this medication have been easy as it is Spring Break. This next two weeks are going to be the real test. (You were booked the coming Saturday so I chose the next).

I have had this feeling for a long time like something is getting trapped in the veins of my leg, and a little vein jumping starts going on. This has happened for a long time now.

Working out has me walking at a better rate. (For a long time I was as slow as a mountain.)

The Past Antipsychotics: Risperdal Geodon Abilify

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Originally uploaded by RedTea.

Geodon-
Could not sleep at night, but could during the day.
Eye unfocusing and refocusing
others... I'm off it now so it doesn't matter.

Feeling of peacefulness and calm.
Much happier than when on Risperdal.

Risperdal-
Took this one for a long time until milk started coming out of me. icky I know

Abilify-
Concluded that it didn't hold back the psychotic as well as another medication might.