Waiting, watching, wishing

I am waiting. I feel like I am not ill enough, but mine will last for years. It’s just another blow to my health. I have little to say here. It is hard to talk in this place. I hope I don’t catch anything. The dude I sat by had pink eye. If I come here and end up with a fatal sickness it is all my own fault.

How am I supposed to exercise? At least I made it to class. I need to exercise. I need to burn away all this cholesterol. I’m so young. The picture on the website showed a grandpa. The first time I really worked out (other then gym class) my legs hurt until they went numb. So lets see… I was much skinner. I wonder what my veins look like after all these years.

I’ve been so sick for so long. It is because of all this time sleeping and such and such. I so bored. I have already worried about this and I have set up an appointment, yet now I have to wait and I am finally hungry. It is not like I can stop by Wendy’s. I am not very good at having high blood sugar. No breakfast, no time to stop for lunch. Maybe I am waiting to have my blood work done. :) Watch, I had a drink… now of those juices that is basically fruit. Really it isn’t juice it is pureed fruit. I think it is good sugar. I wish I could stop by Wendy’s. Stomach hungry. Health, not good.

I wonder if I was born with it, bad veins or something. Maybe it is too little water. Ahhh! I WHAT GREEN TEA! Yet, no it has too much caffeine.

I so much do not like a certain class. I don’t care if the Professor likes my paper ideas. I do not like having to write 15 pages. I think I have sat in the waiting room long enough. Wait, I have to stay here. It says I need to be here 15 mins before the appointment. I wish airborne worked. In a way it did. It is called the Placebo effect.

Wonderful isn’t it. It will not work anymore. I didn’t like the taste of it anyway. It was never as popular around my area was it was in some places (which will not be mentioned).

I yesterday I got all my stuff together. Thinking, “I’m either going to the hospital or school tomorrow. I might be in the hospital for a while so put on a nice bra. Leave my computer it could be stolen.” Yet, if I did have a heart attack it is not like they would have grabbed my stuff. Still, it might have been convenient (for others) to have all my medications in one bag.

I don’t get my sister and saying not to worry. Saying I should enjoy the Spring, and think of those…now 16 day until I need my project into the Sculpture Studio.

Wow. My health is really something indeed. All those times when it felt like something was getting stuck in my vein (in my leg) and the blood was skipping through. Really, really wonderful.

That night when my foot felt horrible I tossed and turned trying to find an angle that it didn’t hurt, but nothing worked. I slid the blanket between my little toe (that cannot move on it’s own) and the one right by it. It seemed that this was where the pain was most.

While exercising that time I talk about. I felt that not enough oxygen was in my blood, so that it could not reach the foot.