Post from even earlier in last week

I stuffed myself today (yesterday). Cereal, yogurt, rice, beans, bread, and honey is a little too much don’t you think? Then my sister handed me my Easter candy… I am the bottomless pit. Every part of me either wants to go out (outside of my apartment) even after all the money I spent on groceries. I am trying to save money here. Outside or sleep is what my body is calling for. Make up you mind…my mind! Give me the feeling like you would like to be working out, or sleepiness but do not change it to tired eyes so soon afterward wanting to do something.

Yesterday over. I woke up today at 5, 6,7, 8 and many little times in between glancing down at my clock. Oh no! Did I remember to open the shades for my Bonsai…I think?

Today is one of those ‘special’ days! It is a Support Group day! Yay! That means I will not have the reading for class done tomorrow, but I find I take better notes if I have no idea what this Prof. is talking about because he tends to repeat the text as if we didn’t just read it.

I seem to have withdrawn a little from the Support Group. One time I couldn’t get a word in, and another I sure to let others have time to speak. I wonder now, after experiencing not getting a chance to speak (which I had had a dream about beforehand)… I wonder if I was talking so much before my decrease in Zoloft (which makes me make talkative) that other people felt the same way because of me?

Isn’t it a little strange all the changes that medication can have on a person? It can help so much, or (if it is wrong) hurt so much. Oh, and it can also be both. My lips are chapped.


I’ve taken care of some details today. I wish I could just sleep. Ok. Energy is back. I have some good music. I’m not saying where I got it. Measure in love. 525,000 min. how do u measure the life of a woman or man? I wish my belly wasn’t getting so big.

I am having serious writers block today. I have some serious editing to do. I am waiting for some feedback and then I’m off on my quest… the quest of getting things together.