Ever so cute

That darn writer p3 Comic...
Originally uploaded by RedTea

my kitty cat hat
warm blocking the winter wind,
he said I was too old to wear it
he said I acted like a child.

I think myself wiser now
I think myself happier then.

dreamed of taking him to the gardens,
warm botanical, nature indoors,
coat off, snow outside
asked him to go, “No.”

there is a light in my eyes,
a fire, that somehow survives.

go away, leave me be,
I cannot stand this,
I want to jump
out of my head.

this unease,
this badness.

emotion, perhaps?
what is this feeling
why does it come?
when did it start?

I am trapped,
don’t you believe me?

america free?
forced into college
to stay on my parents insurance
only to be later forced into a certain job.

remember sleep?
how much of my time is taken by sleep?

do you think I can still make it?